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I’ve worked here for 14 months…

I will surely miss this… my officemates especially… Andrea especially…

My throat is still killing me.

I sucked at my piano class yesterday… but the voice lesson was fine.

We have a good material for our chorus class… it’s an Asian Mass composed by… umm… he’s Korean.

I still haven’t trimmed my fingernails.

I’m trying not to be sad… Dan Haseltine’s singing Tea and Sympathy for me.

I will miss my free internet privileges… *sob*

But I’m glad it’s already weekend… Malapit na bertday ng nanay ko. Have to buy her a gift…

Oh and I was late for work this morning…

I will be a fulltime student starting next week… part-time jogger. Hehehe… I hope I really get to do that in the morning… along with my devotion. Aios. At least something to look forward to.

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So kakantahan ko na si Andrea ng favorite song niya…

Think of me
Think of me fondly when we’ve said goodbye
Remember me once in a while, please promise me you’ll try

…Imagine me
Trying too hard to put you from my mind.
Recall those days, look back on all those times,
Think of the things we’ll never do.
There will never be a day when I won’t think of you!

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Getting too sentimental here…

This song goes out to somebody else as well.
I should have sang this… some couple of months back.
But then again…

uy…

Oh this is my seventieth post!
yun lang. ^^

Nah… There were some, hmmm how to say (koreano aba)… exciting events that happened yesterday. Because of that I got really exhausted that I feel like I want to get more sleep. As in now na.

Yesterday I went to Lyceum of the Philippines University (yep, they already gained their university status…) to get my original transript of records so I can give it to UP’s OUR. Matagal din ako nag-intay kasi… bakit nga ba? BAsta matagal ibigay yung kelangan ko tapos di pa talaga yung kelangan ko yung binigay nila. Pambihira. Makaabot kaya yung pending requirement ko?

Anyway… Since it was Wednesday yesterday eh di may practice yung chorale. I already saw Paul in the hallway and he told me that they’re having auditions and he asked me to drop by the student center. So after fixing my records I went to the SC and there were a lot of aspiring choir members! As in andami talagang nag-audition. Kawawa nga si Sir Nick eh… buti andun si Beryl kaya nakapag-lunch si Sir Nick. Namiss ko talaga yung mga batang yun… sad lang kasi wala na yung mga talagang ka-batch ko. =(

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The other day I read this wonderful psalm written by the sons of Korah… it’s a good reminder when I was having the blues. I was actually asking myself and God where to put my hope. When a person tells you something… it doesn’t even have to be a promise, but you somehow hold on to it hoping that he/ she will keep it… so you begin to hope that in the end things will fall in to place, that it will be how you always dreamt it would be. But it’s a vague hope… because the words that were given to you were wrapped with uncertainties. You really don’t know if the other person can make it or do what he said he will do… so you begin to feel sad and frustrated and worried, and all the negative things start popping in you brain… then you remember… I remember reading in the bible…

Why are you down in the dumps, dear soul?
Why are you crying the blues?
Fix my eyes on God—
soon I’ll be praising again.
He puts a smile on my face.
He’s my God.

Psalm 42:5

in the NIV it says… Put your hope in God Nice.

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And the sunset (ano ba yun… may sunset sa umaga… nyahaha…) sunrise pala was magnificent this morning… pinkish to golden skies. Awesome.

My music theory teacher is as old as me. She’s also only 22. And she’s good. Really good, man. She graduated summa cum laude just this April. So there. That explains it. Astig siya.

After feeling low yesterday I met up with Nerissa’s bible study group at the campus. We studied basic principles about the Christian life… but you know what… it’s amazing because after hearing those things for the nth time… the words still refresh my soul. It’s just wonderful. I learned… or should I say re-learned new insights (wait… if I re-learned them then they’re not new… anyway…). And after feeling inadequate for the past few days, Nerissa shared a word of encouragement from 2 Corinthians 3:5

“Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God.”

Ayus… ^^ I’ll write about the other stuffs I have been thinking of tomorrow…

gatagow.

I have a sore throat today and it’s killing me. Nakakasira ng pag-aaral. :<

Napaka-kamote na ng sight reading skill ko. Pambihira… di na ako sanay mag-basa ng nota… parang nalulunod at naduduling ako bigla. Overwhelmed lang ako siguro. Kelangan ko na ipraktis talaga ang aking left and right brain… Haaay… parang yung sa chorus class namin kahapon, di ako makasabay. Huhuhu… aba syempre mega sight read yung ibang mga kalsmeyt ko… eh ako na-baby sa chorale namin na pindot ever si sir nick ng mga nota na kakantahin namin. Kaya mejo di ako makasabay kahapon… tapos ‘eto pa ung sore throat ko. *lungkot*

Pero may maganda namang nangyari kahapon… Assignment kasi namin na pakinggan yung Carmina Burana (yun yung famous na tugtog sa ad ng pharmaton dati… yung…. tententenen… tententenen… got it?). Astig pala yun… pag napakinggan mo siya ng buo kahit di mo maintindihan kasi latin yung kanta nila… maganda yung music… the choral part and even the orchestra… astig din yung baritone na soloist nila. Yan pa lang yung magagamit kong adjectives for now… di ko pa maaanalyze yung music. Pero anyway magaling talaga si Carl Orff… at masarap mag-stay sa music library…

Haaay… kelangan ko pa mag-ensayo. Maraming maraming ensayo. That’s how a musician’s career flourishes. Sana di namamalo ng kamay yung piano teacher ko.

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‘eto lalagyan ko na ng lyrics…

Semper crescis
Aut de crescis
Vita de te stalis….

LSS na ‘to.

Classes started yesterday. My first class was Fundamentals of Conducting and my arms had its much needed exercise. We were taught by Dr. Navarro how to move the arms properly when conducting… kangalay ah! But it was fun… it will tone your biceps… hehehe….

Our chorus class was funner. Maybe it’s because of our teacher… Sir Eudie (i’m not sure if that’s how they spell it, but that’s how I heard people call him… ). He’s got a lot of antics up his sleeves. And he’s good too… he’s the conductor of the San Miguel Master Chorale.

I still haven’t met my voice teacher but at least I already have a schedule with her. She was in Madrid for a performance and I’m not sure if she’s already back here in Pinas. But I met my piano teacher already. I think she’s a sweet lady. She already gave me my repertoire… kelangan nang simulan ang ensayo… ^^

Then after my classes I met up with my sponsor in Hope Alive. She’s a staff in CCC and they had an activity in Kalai yesterday. They were giving out free ice cream to the freshies (bakit nga pala di ako kumuha nun?). We had a good talk… kamustahan tungkol sa maraming bagay… mga latest developments. Mga 1 hour din siguro kami nag-usap. I almost did not show up yesterday kasi tinatamad na ako and I just wanna go home… but I’m glad I did see her. She’s been an encouragement to me. Even though we’ve only met twice (kahapon yung twice). I’m blessed to see how God is blessing her life and ministry. It showed me God’s immense and unconditional love. It’s really good to live under God’s love. ^^

There was just a little tinge of sadness in our talk… at least on my part… (dapat talaga nag-ice cream na ako eh!). We partly talked about grieving over losses. She asked me if I’ve already properly grieved over … hmm… I told her that I feel like I’m surprisingly okay… but I know I’m not… it’s kinda weird ‘coz just the other night I had this “missinger” feeling that gave me a “sinisikmurang heart” (oh the terms that I coin… tsk, tsk…) but since I’m not like that everyday… I guess I’m doing ok. Ok? Maybe it’s part of the process lang… it’s been barely 3 months so alright… I expect me to have these feelings…

And I hope that hmm… is okay. I hope that he’s starting to figure out what God’s plan is for his life… I dunno… if that’s the right term for it. I don’t know how to put it… but we’ll see. God knows hmm… better than I do and His love is far greater than mine so I better trust God about this stuff, aryt? (oh this is such a dead give away… ala blind item pa tuloy)… hmmm well… this doesn’t happen everyday. So pardon me.

~Need to eat ice cream…or a banana… or chocolates… or a banana split… hay~

today is really the first day of class and i’m quite anxious about it kasi wala pa akong pencil and notebook. hehehe… I’ll be meeting my piano teacher this afternoon… and before that I’ll have a long break… ano kaya pwede gawin?

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last night I had a little difficulty falling asleep. Do you know the feeling of a “sinisikmurang heart”? It’s a kinda weird feeling. ‘Di ba pag sinisikmura ka parang ang lamig ng tyan mo… ganun yung feeling ko last night pero sa heart naman. Hnlabo men…

something just hit me… or something just popped up in my head… a thought… or thoughts… something like memories… I began to feel nostalgic (or something to that effect). Then a couple of water droplets fell from my eyes courtesy of my tear glands. Ayan… para di masyado madrama. Bigla din naman nawala… sna di na maulit yun… masakit sa heart eh… ang maalala ang mga bagay-bagay.

Oh c’mon self… you’re getting too old for this. Siya sige… this too will pass.

Yesterday was the welcome assembly for freshies at school. I was referred to as a “freshie” again, one more time, for the second time around. Not so fresh, eh.

But the Welcome Assembly yesterday was really welcoming nonetheless. But before I go to that part lemme tell you first about a creepy cat that I encountered yesterday inside the CR of my College. I was about to do my thing in one of the cubicles when lo and behold! A cat! I don’t have a phobia of feline creatures in general but this cat… i’m telling you man… with the way it opened its mouth… parang sinasabi nyang… “I got fangs here you see… and I haven’t had my breakfast yet.” Yikes! (effect ito ng panood ng peliculang “stray cats” nung ako ay bata pa) Syempre I am bigger than the creepy cat but when I was about to enter one of the cubicles… it moved from its place, walked to the cubicle’s entrance, an then stood on my way. Then it “meowed” in a “fierce” way for a cat. Mas mukha pa ngang tamed ang tigerette ko na si bibi eh. Anyway I ended up fixing my hair in front of the mirror pero meron pa ring halong kaba… so binilisan ko na…. hmm… hindi kaya naamoy ng ilong niyang pawang may super powers ang sausage mcmuffin na nasa bag ko?

So on with the assembly. First taym ko kayang umattend ng ganun so wala lang… hehehe it really made me feel like a freshman. at syempre ang mga kasama ko dun sa loob are freshmen too. We were grouped according to our colleges and because, sapagkat, ngunit, datapwa’t… musika ang kolehiyo namin… kasama namin yung UP Symphonic band sa aming hanay (sila rin ay mula sa aming kolehiyo kaya ganun). Kaya ayun nung tumugtog sila… mejo masakit sa eardrums dahil fullforce sila… atchaka katabi ko lang ang mga tuba, trumpets, at perc section. Pero okay yung ganung set-up kasi nung inintroduce young college namin with the freshies parang production number. hehehe syempre may accompaniment at nung pinakilala na kami nung dean… eh kinanta pa niya… opera style. Sa’n ka pa?

After the assembly we were asked to go straight to our college which was very near kasi magkatabi lang naman ung theater at Abelardo hall… the student council of our college was really sweet… they prepared stapegi for us, and an egg sandwich! so yun na yung lunch namen… then we were serenaded (ewan ko if that’s the appropriate term) by the umm… UP Brigada (i’m not sure with the name… but it does have a brigada on it). It’s a group of perc players… at dahil ako ay hindi familiar sa perc instruments… yung cowbell lang yung alam ko. Hehehe… napakagaling nila. You can really feel the music kahit sumakit din ulit yung tenga ko. The performance was really good.

Iniisip ko nga eh… forever ba akong maiistarstruck sa mga ‘tu? Galeng eh… and well yeah… according to the dean we have a tough act to follow. That made me really anxious about my skill… kakabakaba.

at… malapit ko nang iwan ang opisina… sniff! sniff!