outburstsJune 7, 2006 11:48 pm

Have you had something which you treasure and take care of… but because it’s always there you tend to “take it for granted” sometimes. You think that it’ll always be there anyway so need to worry that you might lose it some day.

Then that fateful day comes… you’re going about your regular stuff when you suddenly noticed that it’s missing! That thing that was once a part of you is now gone… you try to calm yourself… but panic sets in. You begin to feel its absence… like life won’t be the same without it. You try to search everywhere only to get frustrated. You actually don’t know how can something that you’ve once held so close to you can get lost… missing… out of sight… zip… nada… gone! Other people try to calm you by sympathizing with your loss… but they really can’t do anything about it! They can only do so much…

So you try to cope with the loss… offering a silent prayer to God that you find that thing again… and…

So you did! Thank God you did… you had an inkling that you’ll find it there… and true enough. There it is!

Right under your keyboard in the office!

So you promise yourself that you won’t take it away again ever!
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okay so this not something dramatic. it really happened yesterday… i thought i’ve lost my ring forever! if you haven’t seen it… it’s a silver ring with musical notes… and kuya Jeg bought in Baguio for me… well he didn’t buy it as a gift… i gave him money to buy it. Though it didn’t even fit in my ring finger where it’s supposed to be… i wore it on my pinkie. And it will stay there…

i was about to throw temper tantrums yesterday when I found out my ring was gone. I forgot that i took it off while in the office… so i searched all over at home and even traced back my events so I can remember whether I really took it off or not. I was trying to remember if I took it off in the office… I only calmed down when I felt like maybe I did leave it in the office. So when I got here this morning… I did look under my keyboard and found it there. whew! It’s a special ring because I’ve wanted to have that kind of ring ever since I was still in COP. Besides I really got used to it being there in my finger… it really felt weird yesterday when I didn’t feel it there…

So the moral of the story… lagyan ng super glue yung singsing para di na matanggal ever. Nah… it made me think actually… I realized that there are people whom I’ve taken for granted because I thought that they’ll always be there for me… you won’t notice their absence at first but when it finally dawns on you… it will sort of drive you crazy. Especially when they left a mark in your heart… just like the ring on my finger… you know that something was once there… You’re lucky enough if you find them again… just like when I found my ring. But sometimes they’ll just be gone. And if ever you found it again… maybe somebody else owns it already… or things aren’t the same as before… This is getting dramatic already. But it’s a good realization I guess.

So what do I do? Superglue it is…

outbursts 3:22 am

My body still feels sore. Two days ago… last Monday to be exact, I didn’t have anything to do at home so I decided to go to Amoranto to jog. I took my cousin Jessie with me and he was quite excited about it.. though I won’t let him run around ‘coz he has a n asty cough. When we got there the Philippine team for cycling was having their training. My cousin got dizzy watching them because they were going round and round and round and round the oval… as in they were like energizer bunnies! Hehehe… I didn’t jog right away because it was still hot so we just sat around and waited for the sun to set a little bit more. Then when we got down I walked the entire oval first (in the inner lane), then ran… walked… ran… walked… walked… ran and went home. I did some stretching before I jogged but my thighs are sore… and my back too… I don’t know why. Anyway jogging is fun because when I’m running I get to relax my mind and I don’t think of anything else… but the place brought back some memories… uh okay… let’s not go there… hehehe…

Lately, I’ve been catching up with some of my friends from way back and I think that’s really nice. I miss them all… I’m glad that they’re doing well in their respective fields.

Also, yesterday I already got enlisted in all of my subjects. I was absent from work yesterday so I could fix my schedule. It was quite tiring since I was unfamiliar with the enrolment system in UP… But there were not a lot of freshmen that day… and at least I got to meet with my piano teacher already. She was very comely… and she even asked me if I wanted to study with her ‘coz we have the freedom to choose our teachers for our major and minor subjects… or whatever it’s called. Of course when she asked me that I didn’t say no… she’s the chairman of the piano department kaya. Then my voice teacher will be Aileen Espinosa-Cura who happens to be the wife of Dan Cura, president of FEBC Philippines . Thta’s swell… ^^

I don’t have classes on Wednesdays… so I think I’ll devote that day to practice playing the piano. Speaking of which… kuya Jeg and I are in search of a second hand piano we could use for our rehearsals. Since I have to spend a lot of time playing the piano since that’s like my concentration, and my minor is voice, kelangan na ng piano sa bahay. So if you know some people who want to sell their pianos… tell me ’bout it. Teka bakit plural yun eh I only need one lang naman…

Next week na start ng classes… mejo nag-dradrama na kami ni Andrea dito since I’d have to leave soon… waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! That’s really sadness… Sob! Hikbi! But I’m glad I already have a friend in the college… she’s younger than I am but that’s okay… kapangalan ko naman sister niya eh. ^^ Hehehe…

I’m quite nervous to meet my piano and voice teachers… yikes! Kalawangin na yung fingers ko at ang mata ko sa pag-basa ng nota. Kamote pa ako sa pag sight-read. Pero kaya yan… by God’s grace. Bawal na maging mediocre ngaun… according to Angel nga dapat kinetic energy na at hindi potential… Besides it’ll be for God’s glory… so gotta give it my best shot. ^^

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Lately I’ve been going crazy with this anime in channel 2… it’s about a kid who’s a baker. HIs name is Azuma Kazuma… nakakatuwa panoorin kasi di ako marunong mag-bake! Hahaha… tapos ibang klase pa yung mga bread na binebake nila. The title of the show by the way is “Yakitate Japan”. One time, they even taught in the show how to bake a bread using a rice cooker. Asteeg talaga… kaso lang matagal yung process eh… nakakaaliw talaga siya. Hehehe…

Tapos kahapon nadiscover ko na masarap ang lemon flavored juice ng Tang. Tama lang yung timpla niya… mas masarap pa dun sa lemonade na binebenta sa KFC… kunsabagay di naman lemonade yung sa Tang… tama nga ba? Ah basta masarap siya… ^^

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