I take a lot of people for granted in my life. I’m really not good in keeping in touch. Some of my friends know that by now. I don’t have an explanation for it. Nor an excuse. But that doesn’t mean I love them less.

There are things that I don’t want to go back to… no matter how I’m dying to do so. Fear creeps up. I just don’t want to face the reality that something’s already gone… or see something which I’m not a part of anymore… so it’s like looking at it from a distance. It will definitely break my heart… even if I’m just thinking about it.

Please don’t hate me if I can’t face it yet. You don’t know what’s inside my heart. Be patient if you really wanna know. But please just be there. I may appear to have forgotten… but I don’t. It’s just painful to recall everything that was good because I know I lost something.